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Really bored of today :( no one is around me today, no really no one :( i totally missed a lot of ppl now especially someone far there :'( how are yaa them? I missed them so really hen much >.

These days I got a lot of examination. hmph~ 'till idunno what should I do only in my school's stuffs. I even forget what should I do, I mean, what homework that I got. Tomorrow will be my BIOLOGY examination ad guess what? I even dunno about the topic that I learned :( BIOLOGY is really refers to a lesson where a lot of Latin words inside :( memorising Latin words should be really hard. Today, I've finished designing for my cell group photo. It wasn't looked great for me, but my dad and my young brother said it's nice. You could see the design here . Okay, I'm gonna tell you something what did I do while I felt nothing to do evryday and even everytime. I really love sending something like people called as "FOWARD message" but it was made by me & it surely different everyday. And I always write everything that I wanna shout in it but I only gave it for some people. And someone who I always give the message is Fumiko's Indonesian number. Yeah, ...

Okay, I forget to add some more things just now, I just make the new ones. I'm thinking of someone who shouldn't I loved *as what my lasts blog that I posted* again :( and now stupidity *owh, not that stupid* I think of him! NOPE la! shouldn't think of anyboy ler~ should just think for my families, best friends, close friends, my studies, my future, and my talent. And even my characters. Haaayaaaaa~ this girl is thinking too much ya! Am I so egoist or am I so negative thinker? wew. hmph~ I should be focus of what is the first and let it to the last if something what I want isn't that realy so important! YEAH! okay, this time I'm gonna really off! Searching for my dad's songs for Sunday church first than off the NOTEBOOK and study for my PKN! See yah! Mwah!

Today is a really busy day actually. Having plus score for physics from Sir. Samar from Chapter 3, should study PKN for tomorrow's examination and doing my drawings. And I haven't finished all of them :(((((((((( I'm to great to say :( Huah! From yesterday, I study my PKN but 'till now I even don't understand it from the beginning and I have to study for around 20 pages of my book :( and lazily, I'm still could have some online now *really lazy person huh?* and now I'm typing really fast to have everything faster :))) Hahah, today, fumiko gives me her responds and all about what I was doing in for her :) sorry before yah Fumiko :) I've been really so wanting everything what I want :( and I always do a lot of silly plans :( I miss u really so much! Okay, I couldn't have more onlines :( cause my parents has gone home! BYE!

Last days, I was thinking of an idea which I try to not look for Fumiko. I try to not really talk or miss her *but actually she is the one that i missed so much*. I just sometimes responded her tweets *that's not really an important ones* and not bbm-ing her. In facebook, we are on a discussing, so it's not really influenced. But maybe we gonna off our discussion too in facebook. I try to wait for her. Wait her to look for me, finding information about me, or everything about me :) but what I got it's not really something I want. Maybe it's because that has been her character. Hehe. Idk too. I wish she could look for me and even so worried about me. That's all what I want. I wanna see, does she really missed me or not? Or I'm also nothing for her just like others? Or maybe I'm just like her bodyguard? Hmm, I'm sure she's not someone like that. I wish she reliezes it :) ♥ hmph~ okay, no more talking too much. Should be off! Parents have gone home alre...

Sighs~ Rupanya minggu nih banyak kali kerjaanku. I have a lot of things to do for this week! Lazy to mention them :( What a busy is that? I think, I'm not really gonna have a lot of rests this week :( should study more to improve my scores and average and wish I could have a better rank than before :) and I'm really shocked or maybe crazy of PHYSICS! Last week, I just had my physics examination for chapter 2. Then in this week on Wednesday, I'm gonna have something like examination for plus score about chapter3! Haisss~ I planned to study Chemistry and Math this week, but maybe it'll be canceled. Cause on Thrusday and Friday, I will have my PKN and Hostory test. Beneran bisa jadi gila tar. This is not my type. This is a really clever person type. And I was entering the wrong class. Oh NO! No, no, no! I shouldn't have this thoughts, I have to be thankful of GOD! REMEMBER THAT TANIA! Because what I wish is to be clever and I think this is the only way to be clever. Ha...

These days, I feel more problems in this world. 'Till my head couldn't be filled again and I have to cry :( actually it's not a cry, but it's a feeling where I can't express about. I wanna shout, I can't. I wanna everythings based on my wants, I can't. I wanna ignored it, but I can't too :( okay, I'm gonna just write everything that passes my mind... I think, I'm really not gonna open my heart for any opposite-sexs. Because, if it happens, I couldn't stop thinking of that person and the worse is when he doesn't like me, my head gonna think more about him :( thinking about any ideas that could make him love me :( I have my integrity and I should do it! This integrity should I keep really well 'till the end of school's life. I'm really so crazy about it. Whatever people said or what I think, I should do what I've promised. Aduh~ reall :( so really :( I shouldn't love someone! And actually I've loved a wrong person :(...