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This was the post that I typed on the 7th August on Sunday 2011 Halo Halo! Back again! I am kindly a lil bit lonely so that I planned to only post a blog. This blog really helps me to express my feelings, shares my experiences and moments, then one day, I'll read everything from the first post 'till the last. Couldn't imagine how will it be like when I re-read all my posts. Maybe, I will be really feeling like "OmyGOD, why could I be like that?" hahaha. It's weird ya. Bahahaha. Hmm, I was being so emotional just now. I feel like being so lonely. Feel like, no one comes to me. No one look for me. And just now, after church, I directly joined with my old friends. Nothing really nice to be with them. Everything looked so luxurious with them. And, when I talked, I was being really ignored by them. I only have my dinner at Sushi Tei then I directly go home. What a moment. Hmm. I have been so emotional since the lasts days and it made me more emotional when I w...

I've now being a SH2 student, as what I've told you in the last post. I was entering 11science9 class. The one that moved to this class from X5 were me, Catherine, Kevin, Jacky, Calvin, and Fransiskus. It were only 6 of us that move. Hmm, Venzy got 11science7, Denny, Hazzel, and Jessica were in the 11science5 class. Then I asked to move class to the teacher incharge. Jessica also wants to move with me. We planned to move to 11science7 class, with Venzy. But then, only me that could enter that class, but Jessica, she can't. Actually, if someone from science7 class wanted to move to science5 class, Jessica will be surely could be able to move to science7 class. Ugh, so sad! I have a lot of problems since I've started my school. I will do my best for solving that problems. Wish me luck everyone :D I really got a lot of problems and I hope, those problems won't make me to have farer relation with God and fail in my study. I want to be good in my study. In faith, I shoul...

Wogh. Time passed so fast. Can't wait for L HORA Youth Camp retreat already <3<3 everything is just almost complete :D things to bring: a pair of pajamas, around 4 or 3 pair of clothes, CAMERA , flashlight, umbrella, laptop *maybe*, BIBLE , a pen, bath tools, erm I think only that, HAHA! I should have prepare many things :D yah, I mean I should prepare everything without missing anything :D I'll be the committees there and I'm ready to praise GOD there! Oops, not even there, but now and forever I'll praise Him :D Ahh, hopefully I asked Felixe to join retreat and finally she wants it! Ohemgeh! Then I asked Jeniffer, Fitra, Fransisca, Vinni, Vete, Pian, to join retreat too. I could see it, that Vinni and Vete really wanted to join it. But at last they can't :( yah, because of some reasons... I wish they could come :D really wishing them to join. Okay, though the registration has closed, but I'll keep praying for them to join the retreat. All of them that I a...

Just have some arguments with my sister just now. Whatever. She's the one who didn't respond on me while I asked her something important to do tomorrow. Okay, I know, I was too mad and my voice sounded so high. That's me. And who made me to be like this? My surroundings. The people who are almost everyday with me. I'm like this because of them. But it was not their fault at all. The point is, in every problem, everybody has their own fault in every problems they got. And me, I'm someone who will care about the problem even in any condition, but if it's to complicated and even making me so stress, I'm gonna be out of this problem. It's by searching for the best way to end the problem that will make the problem ends faster and better the consequence will be worse. Sometimes I could still control that complicated and messed problems, but I can't control it if it's too far. Okay, let's just say it if it's too far and out of my ability. And ...

Today was my last day at school to study for my semester examination. On Monday, I'll have my semester exam already. Guess what? The first examination would be Math! Oh no! But hopefully I've studied my Math though only from last year semester examination paper. I wish I can do my examination so well. Hmm, these days are kinda busy. I've to do my school's stuffs & doing design for Youth Camp for 21st-23rd June later. I wish to have a big responsibility of it but I also want to keep focusing of what my priority is. Hmm, maybe June and July will be full of photographs. I planned to bring camera for Youth Camp, then will be a photographer for Cindy's 17th party, & maybe doing some photo shoots to have some skills. I should be doing good things for my holidays not wasting ones. Today, after having cell group with my church buddies, I planned to go to Cambridge to take pictures for modelling contest today. But it was cancelled because I'm going to my cousin...

Tomorrow will be Christmas! MERRY CHRISTMAS to everyone who read this! Tomorrow I'll have Christmas celebration at GMS :) Love yaa :* hmm, today's wish, I could have better Christmas than before... But actually, my heart is break now because I felt I'm not really absent in people's eyes who are actually I love them :'( GOOD NIGHT

Hi there? Miss me so much huh? A lot things I've done. And it's hard to tell u one by one :) the old Connect Group Youth 12 has just separated and borned a new leader, Novalisa. I really congrats to her :) she is back as a leader again as she has ever been a leader when we were Eagle Teens :) But I was not the same Connect Group with her anymore, I'm still the child of Ono :)) it's okay, nevermind :D This month is final examination month with December. I should study more lorr~ anyway, my scores have increases than last month :) thanks for Your blessing Dad :))) only some lessons that get lower score. Wish me luck for the final examination yaa :) GMS got some competitions to build our unity and to have some fun :) I wasn't joining any of it, but actually I want to join photography competition. But I think, it hasn't the time for me to join it. I'm gonna wait for my DSLR and I'll surely joining all photography competitions if it's not disturbing my sc...

Okay, I forget to add some more things just now, I just make the new ones. I'm thinking of someone who shouldn't I loved *as what my lasts blog that I posted* again :( and now stupidity *owh, not that stupid* I think of him! NOPE la! shouldn't think of anyboy ler~ should just think for my families, best friends, close friends, my studies, my future, and my talent. And even my characters. Haaayaaaaa~ this girl is thinking too much ya! Am I so egoist or am I so negative thinker? wew. hmph~ I should be focus of what is the first and let it to the last if something what I want isn't that realy so important! YEAH! okay, this time I'm gonna really off! Searching for my dad's songs for Sunday church first than off the NOTEBOOK and study for my PKN! See yah! Mwah!

Being lonely i s really hate-able. I feel really empty now. I don't know how to do. I know, it's my fault that me myself couldn't owned a lot of friends :( then I get less close friends too :( I need my friend to cheers me everyday. Texting with them is really nice, if I could. I really feel lonely because my heart is really empty now. Yea, I mean of empty is I got no close friend to make a joke on me an me too. Actually I got some, but I couldn't really match with their jokes. I think, I'm not fated to own a lot of friends, but having a little friends-some of them are closed to me-is my fate of having friends. I don't know what I'm thinking about this. But this always happens since I were in elementary 6. Last, I have lots of friends and being so easy going person until elementary 5. But now, I am really changed yah? Really confused of that. I really hope for having a lot of friends because of many reasons. But if God wanted me to have a little one, okay, I...

This day will end. The day when I have a lot of things to do with my friends. I'm gonna miss everything that we've passed. Do you know what? I hate to have this things, but I have no more choice to choose. Future is not something fun for me. It's a serious things to do. I'm sad, I'm hurt. I want to cry now, but I can't. It seems like something tell me to not to do so. Yeah, I'm not kids anymore. Nothing to be cried. Everything will happen like this. I'll have a good time to cry only for the first and the last for one condition. I'll really miss everything, everyone, and everytime that I have 'till I don't what to say now. Looking at past, especially for the pictures is just memories. It'll not happen again one day. Keeping them, will make me miss everything more and more. Gonna miss you, ALL OF YOU...

MAY I LOVE YOU AGAIN ??? Actually, I am still ♥ ♥ and ♥ you again... Gonna cry when you are so happy to be with her... But I couldn't cry... Because, if you are happy, I should be happy too... I texted you, but you never replied me... Do you know how sad it is? Do you know what am I feeling about it? Sometimes you are annoying... But I couldn't say that everyday... Because I am still love you... I have to suffer from all of this... I should be patient to wait for you... Waiting, waiting, and waiting... Hope you will be back... I'm trying to forget you, but I couldn't... Sad, sad, and sad... Today, I saw you talking with her... I saw it from the far side... I could see you even our distance is so far... Because only you that I see... Only you that will never lost from my mind... ....Welew... Pity me yahh... Waiting for someone who will maybe almost has a girl friend... .....TT.....

Hmm.. I have one thing I would like to do.. But I couldn't do it.. It hurts me everytime when I want to do it.. Really hurtttt... I want to texted him, but I know, he will be so arrogant now.. I miss him a lot.. I don't know how a lot it is.. I hope that he won't be that arrogant.. But what is the result is he is getting more, more, & more arrogant now.. Wanna forget him, but I couldn't.. I've never think about him, but sometimes he passes my mind.. Sometimes, he always makes me annoy.. I didn't like what he has done.. But my heart never feels annoy with it.. My heart is still keeping him inside it... Haeyaaah"~ thinking of him is hatenable things to do... TT... I think,, he got the NEW ones after leaving the other.. And this heart is still hurt when I know it.. HATE TO THINK OF YOU!!!!!!!!!

I think that you will back to me... But actually it's not... My GOD... I'm crazy of YOU lol!!!! I'm fine when I got no NEWs... But when I know u & her... This heart is very hurttsssss.... I've tried to forgot u... But I always can't do it... U keep passing my mind... Hope u know my feelings... It's hurt... & really hurt.... I've done many things to don't think about YOU.... Tapi gak bisa trussss.... SAKITTT tauuu...

hoammm ~ Today flag raising ceremony ~ the special ones ~ i'm joining the important part there ~ named paskibra ~ but you know , ~ i was late around 45 minutes !! ~ and also got angry from my auntie and uncle ~ huh ! ~ so sorry yah ~ I've make both of you so busy ! ~ but it was my important part ! ~ have to go there loxx ~ so hate loxx ~ actually I really want to join it ~ but late ~ only me that late there ~ and the one that replace mii is ANDREA ~ but she don't know what she has to do ~ so sorry loxx ~ huhuhuhuhu ~ I want to be professional of paskibra ~ hue ~ yah ~ because i'm not joining , ~ i was looking for Chelsea ~ She came from other school , ~ but same church with me , ~ that's why i know if Chelsea come to my school too ~ she was lonely in the canteen ~ i also love her voice ~ once i heard it , ~ seems wants to fly ~ co z her voice is so beautiful ~ that's her talent ~ and also she can play DRUM ! ~ WOW !!! ~ COOL . ~ Love it !! ~