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This was the post that I typed on the 7th August on Sunday 2011 Halo Halo! Back again! I am kindly a lil bit lonely so that I planned to only post a blog. This blog really helps me to express my feelings, shares my experiences and moments, then one day, I'll read everything from the first post 'till the last. Couldn't imagine how will it be like when I re-read all my posts. Maybe, I will be really feeling like "OmyGOD, why could I be like that?" hahaha. It's weird ya. Bahahaha. Hmm, I was being so emotional just now. I feel like being so lonely. Feel like, no one comes to me. No one look for me. And just now, after church, I directly joined with my old friends. Nothing really nice to be with them. Everything looked so luxurious with them. And, when I talked, I was being really ignored by them. I only have my dinner at Sushi Tei then I directly go home. What a moment. Hmm. I have been so emotional since the lasts days and it made me more emotional when I w...

I've now being a SH2 student, as what I've told you in the last post. I was entering 11science9 class. The one that moved to this class from X5 were me, Catherine, Kevin, Jacky, Calvin, and Fransiskus. It were only 6 of us that move. Hmm, Venzy got 11science7, Denny, Hazzel, and Jessica were in the 11science5 class. Then I asked to move class to the teacher incharge. Jessica also wants to move with me. We planned to move to 11science7 class, with Venzy. But then, only me that could enter that class, but Jessica, she can't. Actually, if someone from science7 class wanted to move to science5 class, Jessica will be surely could be able to move to science7 class. Ugh, so sad! I have a lot of problems since I've started my school. I will do my best for solving that problems. Wish me luck everyone :D I really got a lot of problems and I hope, those problems won't make me to have farer relation with God and fail in my study. I want to be good in my study. In faith, I shoul...

Just have some arguments with my sister just now. Whatever. She's the one who didn't respond on me while I asked her something important to do tomorrow. Okay, I know, I was too mad and my voice sounded so high. That's me. And who made me to be like this? My surroundings. The people who are almost everyday with me. I'm like this because of them. But it was not their fault at all. The point is, in every problem, everybody has their own fault in every problems they got. And me, I'm someone who will care about the problem even in any condition, but if it's to complicated and even making me so stress, I'm gonna be out of this problem. It's by searching for the best way to end the problem that will make the problem ends faster and better the consequence will be worse. Sometimes I could still control that complicated and messed problems, but I can't control it if it's too far. Okay, let's just say it if it's too far and out of my ability. And ...

Ah, this is only the third time I post a blog here since 2011. Hekkk. Okay, Idk what will I post. I'm just wanted & missing this blog alrdi. Day by day I've passed. Kinda lovely & bad moments were passed too. Haha. Okay, I'll just write how's me myself these days. Ahhhhh, I think I'm worse these days than before :( why? Because I'm really an insomnia addict-er -.- I sleep so lately and wake so lately in the free days. I sleep lately and sleep during my activities in school, private, and everywhere. Ahhh, what a disease that come by myself. I wished, you people who read this won't be like me and don't ever do it(!!!) If you've been addicted to this, you will be uncontrolled. I mean like, we won't do everything in the right time. The time we should study, we will use it to do useless stuffs. The time we should sleep, we will use it to do our important stuffs. The time we could have refreshing, we use it only to sleep. I'm trying to esca...

Hi there? Miss me so much huh? A lot things I've done. And it's hard to tell u one by one :) the old Connect Group Youth 12 has just separated and borned a new leader, Novalisa. I really congrats to her :) she is back as a leader again as she has ever been a leader when we were Eagle Teens :) But I was not the same Connect Group with her anymore, I'm still the child of Ono :)) it's okay, nevermind :D This month is final examination month with December. I should study more lorr~ anyway, my scores have increases than last month :) thanks for Your blessing Dad :))) only some lessons that get lower score. Wish me luck for the final examination yaa :) GMS got some competitions to build our unity and to have some fun :) I wasn't joining any of it, but actually I want to join photography competition. But I think, it hasn't the time for me to join it. I'm gonna wait for my DSLR and I'll surely joining all photography competitions if it's not disturbing my sc...

Okay, I forget to add some more things just now, I just make the new ones. I'm thinking of someone who shouldn't I loved *as what my lasts blog that I posted* again :( and now stupidity *owh, not that stupid* I think of him! NOPE la! shouldn't think of anyboy ler~ should just think for my families, best friends, close friends, my studies, my future, and my talent. And even my characters. Haaayaaaaa~ this girl is thinking too much ya! Am I so egoist or am I so negative thinker? wew. hmph~ I should be focus of what is the first and let it to the last if something what I want isn't that realy so important! YEAH! okay, this time I'm gonna really off! Searching for my dad's songs for Sunday church first than off the NOTEBOOK and study for my PKN! See yah! Mwah!

Sighs~ Rupanya minggu nih banyak kali kerjaanku. I have a lot of things to do for this week! Lazy to mention them :( What a busy is that? I think, I'm not really gonna have a lot of rests this week :( should study more to improve my scores and average and wish I could have a better rank than before :) and I'm really shocked or maybe crazy of PHYSICS! Last week, I just had my physics examination for chapter 2. Then in this week on Wednesday, I'm gonna have something like examination for plus score about chapter3! Haisss~ I planned to study Chemistry and Math this week, but maybe it'll be canceled. Cause on Thrusday and Friday, I will have my PKN and Hostory test. Beneran bisa jadi gila tar. This is not my type. This is a really clever person type. And I was entering the wrong class. Oh NO! No, no, no! I shouldn't have this thoughts, I have to be thankful of GOD! REMEMBER THAT TANIA! Because what I wish is to be clever and I think this is the only way to be clever. Ha...

These days, I feel more problems in this world. 'Till my head couldn't be filled again and I have to cry :( actually it's not a cry, but it's a feeling where I can't express about. I wanna shout, I can't. I wanna everythings based on my wants, I can't. I wanna ignored it, but I can't too :( okay, I'm gonna just write everything that passes my mind... I think, I'm really not gonna open my heart for any opposite-sexs. Because, if it happens, I couldn't stop thinking of that person and the worse is when he doesn't like me, my head gonna think more about him :( thinking about any ideas that could make him love me :( I have my integrity and I should do it! This integrity should I keep really well 'till the end of school's life. I'm really so crazy about it. Whatever people said or what I think, I should do what I've promised. Aduh~ reall :( so really :( I shouldn't love someone! And actually I've loved a wrong person :(...

Being lonely i s really hate-able. I feel really empty now. I don't know how to do. I know, it's my fault that me myself couldn't owned a lot of friends :( then I get less close friends too :( I need my friend to cheers me everyday. Texting with them is really nice, if I could. I really feel lonely because my heart is really empty now. Yea, I mean of empty is I got no close friend to make a joke on me an me too. Actually I got some, but I couldn't really match with their jokes. I think, I'm not fated to own a lot of friends, but having a little friends-some of them are closed to me-is my fate of having friends. I don't know what I'm thinking about this. But this always happens since I were in elementary 6. Last, I have lots of friends and being so easy going person until elementary 5. But now, I am really changed yah? Really confused of that. I really hope for having a lot of friends because of many reasons. But if God wanted me to have a little one, okay, I...

Whoa! It seems like, these days I post blogs yah :) Yes, it's true :) I gotta a lot of minds that I was think of and I don't know how to express it. Then I just write this blog, where I could take out some of my thoughts. Today, Monday, no flag raising ceremony, because it's gonna raining at that time. YES! But it's really useless, because I've brought my cap and tie :( it made my bag heavier *even I know it's not heavy when I put them*. I'm back to my Mafia course and I started to study more seriously. There got a new teacher :) a girl teacher. Haha. She's nice, hmm, clever too :) she's just 2years of college. When we were going home, my sister joined my cousins to go home, so I went home with her by becak and I stopped in front of Methodist-2's. Geez! My head was onced knocked by the becak's roof. So hurt. Then I almost almost fell down from the becak. At mom's shop, I was really tired. I went to toilet and when I'm gonna go back *I...

GO PISS OFF!!! I HATE D WAY U DID IT 2 ME! U NVR UNDRSTND ME!!! U WANT 2 MAKE ME AS UR NANNY? OK! JUZ GO ON! I DONNO WAD SHOULD I DO NOW! I'M SUFFERED OF ALL OF THIS!!! UNHEARTED PERSON! IT'S UP 2 U WAD DO U WANT 2 DO 2 ME! UDA PASRAH AKU!!! U NVR EVEN UNDRSTND ME ONCE! OK, U EVER! BUT JUZ A MOMENT! DO U KNOW HOW TIRED AM I? YA, I KNOW U'RE MORE TIRING THAN ME, BUT I'VE MY LIMIT TOO! JUZ GO WAD DO U WANT 2 DO 4 ME! U WANT 2 MAKE ME AS UR ROBOT, GO THEN. THEN I WILL SEE HOW ENOUGH ARE U MAKING ME LIKE THIS! U WANT 2 HIT ME, SLAP ME, OR ANYTHING, JUST GO ON! U'RE PLEASED 2 DO IT. BCAUSE I KNOW, I'M NOW NOT HUMAN 4 U. BUT I'M NOW A ROBOT 4 U! KEEP THIS WORDS!!!!!

heyhey!! Gettin' crazy of my house's computer. REALLY CRAZY!!! U know wad? In around 30 minutes, this computer will restart... Wad's that??? heleh~ and then, i borrowed my fren's USB for UAS exam materials. U know wad??? There's nothing inside!!! Arggghhhhhhh!!! Sick of it! It just like I wanna to KILL this computer!!!!!!!!!!!! Sick, really sick of it! I dunno how about my examination for music and IPS tomorrow. weleh~ You know, days walk so fast.. Ya, because I'm hoping these days walk so fast 'till I'm in my Senior High level. WHY? Because I hate to face those stubborn peoples! They loved to bully people and they never ever STOP or even BORED with that! Wad people are they! Really got no heart or feelings.. Hayahhh~ gonna stop talking here now. For anyone who read this blog and RELIEZE that I'm talking about u, please be aware of yourSELF! Get out from your bad habits! BAD HABITS GO AWAY forever from them!!!!!!!

Do you know? I keep loving my friends. Giving them my care. Giving them my love. Giving them everything they need. But what did I get? NOTHING!!!!! They even never think of my condition. Okay, actually I don't need their replies. But I need to see how will they appreciate people. If they don't, okay. I don't mind. It's up to them! I just want to tell this world. How much I love YOU!!!!!!!!!! & if u don't want to reply me, okay. I don't mind. But one thing, I will still love you. I come to this world to love everybody. But I don't need their reply. One more, actually that I need is THEY believe in JESUS. Because I love them. I want them to live with me too in the heaven later. Sorry, this is not about religious. But is about how much I want you to know, that I want to live with all of you till in the heaven, live together and happily.

Tan : Daveeee.. uda sombong ia.. hweee.. ~ Vids : Gk la Png ne wa Tan : knapa kmu pening ? Vids : blajar oo Tan : Wee.. aku gnggu kmu gk ? hweee... Vids : ya gtu" de Tan : oo... aku gnggu.. Yda de.. udahin ajah dolo.. w gk mo gnggu u o.. Vids : oW Tan : O ia.. w mo blg a.. mo tnya sehh.. Vids : tnya apa Tan : kok kmu ndak cari akuh ? Weee..~ ku pkr klo kmu ol kmu mo chat sma akuh.. Vids : ow liat OOo wa Jga Lgi pNg Tan : hyh~.. lemes amad kmuh.. Yda de.. Aku mo crita bnyk" sma kmuh.. tpi kmu na gg bsa.. next time ajah klo kta mase connect, w bru kasi tw.. dadadadadahhhhhhhhhh ~ Vids : ok de Tan : =( Vids : pai" Hwaaaa.. my connection with him become so farrr.... Just like me with stranger.. ...

From last Thursday got problem always. OMG !!!! Here is my problems : ~ USB lost ~ Fren's song request lost ~ Doing silly things & by c.Inne ~ Got angry from my mom ~ Salah sangka problem with Vivi ~ Wrong lyric in singing ~ I didn't pay Talitha's money ~ Borrowed money from Arlene ~ Losing my pencil box but actually not ~ Must go from B level to 4th level just to take my cap ~ confuse about my frens ~ I just know I must make project and submit it on 5th May ~ s.Baksan lost ~ My dad's camera was left at school ~ My cell phone was left at school too ~ I must eat in the dark car ~ My mom angry to me & advised me ~ The video training was canceled ~ I must go home with raining situation ~ & many more.. Waduuhh.. Rili hating days & meaningful days !! See,, I must be scolded by many people. Forgeting my jobs. Must be ashamed. mm.. But,, I'll keep this memory here as my great lesson for this few days. haiss.. Exam is coming & everything is coming. hyuh~...

mm.. these days got everything so bored. wala". Yesterday,, VL ,, MW , EC , FF , n D were having shoot by outside people & they cook Japanese food in 2nd CCA time. When I was at the 4th floor, I smell sth. delicious. haha. It smelled like INDOMIE . kaka. But when finally I reached the canteen, it was actually VL & frens cooking there. Woo.. I eat the food once. Its really tasted NICE .. !! iiiHhh Wooow.!! haha. Its really delicious. haha. But I dun knoe wad is the name of the food & I also forgot to ask them for the food name. haha. While, at 2nd CCA, I went & looked after for my Broadcaster class. I went down to the B floor from the 4th floor when I smelled the Japanese food. Then, I went to canteen & eat the Japanese food, then went to MPH. But there's no Broadcaster team there. There were only, CCA dancers, drama, & the band for open house. I was confusing after that. Nothing that I want there. But finally, I went to outdoor & I found them. FGH...

hateeeeee... =X !! Why lifes alwaiz got bad n the gud ones ?? But dat is better than mine !! alwaiz got bad ones everyday !! SUCKSSSSSSSSS !!!! SHOOTTTTT!!! tday's blog is about my dad !! hateeeeee.... But not rili about my dad oo.. =X !!.. Wele".. Alwaiz got angry while duin' sth... Never appreciate me of wad hev i done vor the gud ones.. I'll alwaiz be the worst of everybody's mind..Y_Y.. Esp. vor my family.. It really looks so sad n bad.. But,, GOD asked me to alwaiz be patient n juz keep it as my daily lessons.. And also,, He said dat,, dun care 'bout everyone dat has make u become so DOWN.. 'Bout 'em,, GOD will make another plans vor them.. Yea.. Yestersay, havin' CCA (Web Design & Broadcasting). 1st session, Web Design, Sir.Pao gave us html *dun knoe wad should I call that html*, rili nice.. At the 2nd session, Broadcasting, I was late there. After i've reached there, Mis. Ivan tell us about wad is the tips to face everybody on the sta...

New Year is coming .. Not coming.. But it has passed yesterday.. ^^~.. Yesterday.. Going to Cermin Beach with my big family .. After i've reach there.. My mom angry to me and hitted me in front of everbody.. Ya.. I know it would be so ashamed ,, but not only me that was ashamed.. My mom was ashamed too.. That's rili made me angry.. I mom just wanted herself to be always rite.. I hated that kind of person actually.. But she's my mom.. And of course I'm the same as her too.. So, to say that I hate is impossible .. And I dun like hating people.. It is useless.. Better use my mind to love everybody.. I know I'm bad to behave so unpolite to elder person.. But,, only that can makes them know about their behave.. I dun like gossiping them.. I want tell them the truth .. Just that I want.. So,, I can complete them,, and they can complete me too.. Holiday.. Only helping my mom.. Have fun with family and church friends (just a moment).. SMS ( Cia, Lio, Irz, Friday, Leo, Mas...

wahhhh .. lonk time i hevn't write this blog . i miss dis blog !! kakasssss .. Many kinds of memories dat i've done .. & those days changed mii everyday .. everyday is lesson vor mii orrr .. hehesss .. juz now , after i've eaten my lunch ,, my fren , TEROR was angry to Mei" .. n of course ,, i was a little bit angry to him .. But ,, i was not angry at all .. i juz angry ,, why he can do sth. dat girl is suppose not to got dat ? i juz angry coz of dat .. But after i've seen all of the problems .. Mei" made mii annoyed at her .. She was rili un-gud fren .. HUA .. T_T .. But ,, i dun knoe ,, why i could rili protect her juz like my ril sister .. I hope ,, one day i'll knoe d reason .. hmmm .. these days ,, i'm so busy .. comments are coming to my FS alwaiz .. they nvr stop .. But ,, i've to say thenkss to GOD .. coz HE knoe wad i wanz .. xo ,, HE gave mii a lot of comments dat will alwaiz makes mii busy .. hehess .. My school ask mii to make prese...

exam is coming ordi .. ~ hikzzzz .. hikzzzz .. yahhhh .. tryin to do more now .. i dun knoe i do it or not .. hehess .. ~ ehhhh .. ~ i've been her fren now .. but ....... yahhhh .. dat happened yesterday .. around at 16.00 ,, ~ 16th Xeptember 2008 ,, at Prime One School's canal ,, n at the 4th floor when we'ld hev our Homeroom .. kakass .. ~ i'll keep diz moment here .. ^^ .. ~ hohohoho .. YES !!!!!! diz month is d first time i perform usin guitar !! yuhuuuu !!! thx JESUS .. u've given me chance to perform usin guitar .. Thx yahhhh .. n now .. i want to be serious in guitar .. n also ,, i wan to be serious innnnnnn ........ Thecnologyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!! ~~~ i've been chosen as the student committee in technology .... thx frenzzz .. for d one who choose miii .. i'm rili thxful to u all .. ~ hehesss .. juz dat .. i onli wan to say dat .. hohohohoho ... bye n gbu .. ~~