Here i am after decades letting the blog being so quiet. There have been many things happened already but yet i couldn't tell you about what has happened before. This time, i am gonna all sigh-ing again with my problem and i don't care about people reading this. Not that i don't love those people that i will mention, but it's just that hell with people who keep their images so well. That's not my kind. I am open-self since i realize that image is not everything. I have been having a confuse mind, and that made me having no aim in living my life. I don't know what i should be. Somehow i am forced to be someone's robot and when it seemed like i didn't go their way, they blamed me for being someone they wanted. I kept all my complaints by myself and when i just want to explained things, i am said that i am not polite with the elder and then they kept my words very well so then later my words will be able to be used as some new words to get me down. I am fee