Here i am after decades letting the blog being so quiet. There have been many things happened already but yet i couldn't tell you about what has happened before. This time, i am gonna all sigh-ing again with my problem and i don't care about people reading this. Not that i don't love those people that i will mention, but it's just that hell with people who keep their images so well. That's not my kind. I am open-self since i realize that image is not everything.
I have been having a confuse mind, and that made me having no aim in living my life. I don't know what i should be. Somehow i am forced to be someone's robot and when it seemed like i didn't go their way, they blamed me for being someone they wanted. I kept all my complaints by myself and when i just want to explained things, i am said that i am not polite with the elder and then they kept my words very well so then later my words will be able to be used as some new words to get me down.
I am feeling complicated for real. These things have made me so lazy to do anything since i don't really have a high aim of living anymore. I don't really care about money, although i am seeking for money. Money isn't my really aim of life but once i have known what i am aiming for, of course it is related with having money. And all my important people think is just about money that i will get. I have never even seen the appreciation or the feeling of thankful for having me. It's all about money. You will get love if you have money. Everything i see in the people's eyes are money. They only give love because they just don't want to commit a sin. That's all that i deeply see through. You might tell me to think positive and i actually have done it. I just don't know how to spread my negative thinking, so finally i decided to jot down here.
I think it's done here, still, i am going to continue my life. Since there is something i need to see more.
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